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Mom says Onew looks like a smashed orange.. My brother has always called me “potato bag face” so I’m assuming that Onew and I make a good couple.

My head is filled with baseball, it hurts already, I’m so glad that tomorrow is the final game, lets win this. Too much excitement but damn it we will win! Hopefully! LETS DO THIS!

Today I was learning Dream Girl’s dance. With a broom as a mic stand. Surprisingly, I fell only 35 times and at the end I managed to learn Taemin and Onew’s parts. The chorus for me is the easiest part of the song. Now I just need a real mic stand and some luck to learn Key, Jjong and Minho’s parts. I will never regret spending this entire day and other days to come learning this dance.

Whenever my mom passes near me and the computer (doesn’t care about the time) and she sees that I’m watching something that its not SHINee related she goes all “Who are they!? What are you watching?! Why are you watching them?! Is there even one member of SHINee there?” Instead of telling me “you should go to sleep, its late.” She rather complain about why am I watching something without the guys on it.

Mom wants me to start looking “atractive” and “good looking” so guys can see me and maybe get a boyfriend.

I DON’T WANT TO.

I don’t want a boyfriend, I have started my “be anti social and lonely person like I used to be” mission yesterday!

I LOVE MY BIG SHIRTS I DON’T WANT TO USE ANYTHING ELSE OK!?

Just let me hide under my magic scarf and watch anime.

Have you ever felt like you can’t trust people? like, everybody talks to you just because they need something from you? Like they don’t really want to be friends with you and at the end they backstab you like everyone else has done? I’m feeling like that. After my best friend and I ended comunications this year and after she backstabbed me like nobody has done before, I still trusted people. There was this person who wanted to be my close friend so badly and I just let it come in, and now this person is only talking to me when it needs something, talks to me like I’m some slave or some shit and I should do whatever the hell it wants. But guess what, I’m tired. Tired of everybody making me feel like this. Tired of feeling like I have no friends at all, even if I have but they’re so far away. I’m just going to be the cold, antisocial, mean and lonely person who I was before knowing the word “socialize”. I guess it will be better for me.

You try really hard to make people smile and to make people feel better, it even makes ME feel better. But just knowing that nobody will be there for you when you just want to shut down and to just close your eyes and go away, sometimes it hurts.

Guess this is my reality, thought it wasn’t anymore. But I guess this is my destiny. How can people from other countries can be so much better friends to you than anyone you have ever met so far in your life?

Guys! MY FEELINGS!! I’ve been a Jonas fan since 2007! They were the ones who got me into KPOP too!!! And and I watched them tonight and I couldn’t stop crying and singing everything they sang, like all the memories came back and I was so excited like I was on a concert!! IT WAS BEAUTIFUL OMFG MY BABIES MY FIRST BIAS OMFG!

-Cries in a corner-

When they said they are glad they’re back, I’m glad you’re all back. I missed you. Yeah, Onew kept me company and all my other biases and stuff. But damn, my favorite group ever. Guys, I’m still crying. So much awesomeness, and Joe’s Spanish was just too much for my heart.

And they just kept singing all those old songs and even from Camp Rock and stuff and I just can’t handle it. I’m a mess right now.

Even new songs. Its awesome, I loved it. OMFG.. EVEN SOME COVERS THEY SANG OTHER STUFF IT WAS BEAUTIFUL.